one day more...

"Tomorrow we'll discover what our God in heaven has in store"--"Les Miserables" (musical adaptation by Boubil and Schnoeberg

That's the line that best sums up what I'm feeling now. One more day to go to DLSU and hang out. One night to go to the videoke with my friends. One day to mull about how tomorrow might be, and what to do after. One day to pray for the virtue of surrender. One day to learn to forgive myself for the mistakes I cannot undo, and look forward to a new term. I guess the same goes for a lot of us.

I never liked the day before course card day. How timely that in the next computer, Clar is listening to "Evermore"--- "even if my world falls I will sing, above all I live for Your glory."

araw na wala sa agenda

This is what happens when you decide to let events run their course.

Yesterday's plan: go to school to fix papers, tambay till  2:30, go to Glorietta to help Clar get some materials, go to SM to check out sale and possibly get new shoes.

What actually happened: I think I managed to get to DLSU by sleep-walking (or rather, sleep-commuting). Hahaha! I don't think I actually woke up completely till I got to the tambayan, and realized I was talking to Ate Issa, Tino, and Dan. Tambay was great with Clar, Ate Issa, Tino, Dan, Ate Ynah, Ron, Kuya Niki, Francis, Olivia, Jess, Kuya Arven, and Francis. I especially liked that *cool* thing that Kuya Arven did with the phones. Parang walkie-talkie tuloy.

After convincing my parents that I'd get back safe, I went with Kuya Niki to Baseco and to Hiyas ng Maynila. Ang galing. Ang ganda ng mga GK sites. Ang saya na makita mga kapatid natin na sila mismo ang umaangat sa kanilang lagay. Those places have come a long way since my days in Laya. We were supposed to go to Pinagsama also, but Kuya Niki ended up bringing me along to a meeting for the GK on Fire concert. Oh well. After the meeting, I bumped into Noey. We hung out at McDo for some time before going home.

Wala talaga sa agenda ang araw na ito, pero ang astig.

thank yous for everyone at the end of the term...

Because that's the best way I can sum it all up...

Firstly to GOD: Without Him, I wouldn't have gotten anywhere, wouldn't have grown, wouldn't have loved, wouldn't be the person I am now. I feel secure in His promise now that things will work out.

To my classmates and blockmates

To Trisha, Minseun, Andria, Justine, Jade and Mac: You guys are amazing. Although I know we had to face many challenges with our academics, I'm glad we faced them together.

To Nana, Nica, Annie, Zel, Franz, Wong, Jazz, Marco, Tiff, China, Rory, Char, Julie, Yna, Marc, Marie, Claire, Janine, and everyone else: congrats to all of you and here's to another term as psych(o) students!

Next to my YFC-DLSU family:

To Tino and Ynah-- thanks for being my kuya and my ate in YFC, even if things weren't always easy. Thanks for the guidance and the moral and spiritual support. I'm here if you guys need me. I really hope that all turns out for the best for everyone, especially the two of you. Stand firm in the faith!

To Ate Oche, Ate Issa, Ate Olivia, Marj, and Teddy: Congratulations!!! Graduates na kayo! I'm really going to miss you!!

To Ate Regz, Kuya Darwin, Ate Carmel, Ate Drei, and Kuya Leo: I really miss seeing you guys around a lot. I'm glad that you drop by often just to see how we are.

To Dan, Arven, Dave, Mira, and Karl: Super thanks for the memories from campus summit to Kasangga retreat, to the GA, to households and everything in between. More importantly, thanks for teaching me how to love better, and for helping me grow. I'm sorry if sometimes I was a bit difficult to deal with. I really love you all.

To Gayle, AJ, Geom, and the rest of the sisters: I'm blessed to be serving with you during this first term for the school year. I hope we'll continue to bond and grow together during the rest of the year. God bless in everything you all do!

To Niki, Rodz, Mark, Paul, Teddy, and the rest of the brothers: Thanks for the laughter, the support, the advice, the strength and the friendship. Thanks for putting up with the stress-factor all throughout. Hope to see you guys around and God bless!

guilty/innocent survey

RULE 1
-You can only say Guilty or Innocent.
RULE 2
-You are not allowed to explain anything unless someone messages you and asks!


Danced on a table in a bar?
Innocent

Ever told a lie?
Guilty

Had feelings for someone whom you can't have back?
Guilty

Ever kissed someone of the same sex?

Innocent

Kissed a picture?
Innocent

Slept in until 5 PM?
Guilty

Fallen asleep at work/school?
Guilty

Held a snake?
Guilty

Been suspended from school?
Innocent

Worked at a fast food restaurant?
Innocent

Stolen from a store?
Innocent

Been fired from a job?
Innocent

Done something you regret?
Guilty

Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose?
Guilty

Kissed in the rain?
Innocent

Sat on a roof top?
Guilty

Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?
Guilty

Shaved your head?
Innocent

Slept naked?
Innocent

Had a boxing membership?
Innocent

You made someone cry?
Guilty

Been in a band?
Innocent

Shot a gun?
Innocent 

Donated Blood?
Innocent

Eaten alligator meat?
Innocent 

Eaten cheesecake?
Guilty

Have/had a tattoo?
Innocent

Been too honest?
Guilty

Ruined a surprise?

Guilty 

Ate in a restaurant and got really bloated that you cant walk afterwards?
Guilty

Erased someone in your friends list?
Innocent

Dressed in a woman's clothes (if your a guy)or man's clothes (if your a girl)?
Guilty

DATING Someone?
Innocent

Got totally drunk one night and you have an important exam tomorrow morning?

Innocent

A total stranger treat you by paying your jeepney fare?
Innocent

Got totally angry that you cried so hard?

Guilty

for the guys to read and the girls to get a laugh from

Daddy's Rules for Dating  
Your dad's rules for your boyfriend (or for you if you're a guy):

Rule One:
If you pull into my driveway and honk you better be delivering a package, because you're surely not picking anything up.  

Rule Two:
You do not touch my daughter in front of me. You may glance at her, so long as you do not peer at anything below her neck. If you cannot keep your eyes or hands off of my daughter's body, I will remove them.  

Rule Three:
I am aware that it is considered fashionable for boys of your age to wear their trousers so loosely that they appear to be falling off their hips. Please don't take this as an insult, but you and all of your friends are complete idiots. Still, I want to be fair and open minded about this issue, so I propose this compromise: You may come to the door with your underwear showing and your pants ten sizes too big, and I will not object. However, in order to ensure that your clothes do not, in fact come off during the course of your date with my daughter, I will take my electric nail gun and fasten your trousers securely in place to your waist.

Rule Four:
I'm sure you've been told that in today's world, sex without utilizing a 'Barrier method' of some kind can kill you. Let me elaborate, when it comes to sex, I am the barrier, and I will kill you.

Rule Five:
It is usually understood that in order for us to get to know each other, we should talk about sports, politics, and other issues of the day. Please do not do this. The only information I require from you is an indication of when you expect to have my daughter safely back at my house, and the only word I need from you on this subject is: 'early.'  

Rule Six:
I have no doubt you are a popular fellow, with many opportunities to date other girls. This is fine with me as long as it is okay with my daughter. Otherwise, once you have gone out with my little girl, you will continue to date no one but her until she is finished with you. If you make her cry, I will make you cry. 

Rule Seven:
As you stand in my front hallway, waiting for my daughter to appear, and more than an hour goes by, do not sigh and fidget. If you want to be on time for the movie, you should not be dating. My daughter is putting on her makeup, a process than can take longer than painting the Golden Gate Bridge. Instead of just standing there, why don't you do something useful, like changing the oil in my car? 

Rule Eight:
The following places are not appropriate for a date with my daughter: Places where there are beds, sofas, or anything softer than a wooden stool. Places where there is darkness. Places where there is dancing or holding hands. Places where the ambient temperature is warm enough to induce my daughter to wear shorts, tank tops, midriff T-shirts, or anything other than overalls, a sweater, and a goose down parka - zipped up to her throat. Movies with a strong romantic or sexual themes are to be avoided; movies that feature chain saws are okay. Hockey games are okay. Old folks homes are better.  

Rule Nine:
Do not lie to me. I may appear to be a potbellied, balding, middle-aged, dimwitted has-been. But on issues relating to my daughter, I am the all-knowing, merciless god of your universe. If I ask you where you are going and with whom, you have one chance to tell me the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth. I have a shotgun, a shovel, and five acres behind the house. Do not trifle with me.  

Rule Ten:
Be afraid. Be very afraid. It takes very little for me to mistake the sound of your car in the driveway for a chopper coming in over a rice paddy near Hanoi. When my Agent Orange starts acting up, the voices in my head frequently tell me to clean the guns as I wait for you to bring my daughter home. As soon as you pull into the driveway you should exit the car with both hands in plain sight. Speak the perimeter password, announce in a clear voice that you have brought my daughter home safely and early, then return to your car - there is no need for you to come inside. The camouflaged face at the window is mine.

just get it over with...

I really would still be sleeping now if Jade and Dan hadn't texted me.

Ah yes. The day before my final exams. No use worrying about the stuff I can't do anything about anymore. *cough*chemASA*cough*. At least there's net at home. At least Wicket (despite her being under the weather) is okay company. Hopefully it doesn't rain later, so that I can go with my mom and Clar to Cello's after lunch (parang ang lapit sa bahay...LOL!)

I'm a little scared for the outcome of my grades. Just a 1.5 in my chem subjects or even a 2.0 would be great! I'm a tad worried about my experimental psych grades but I suppose I'll do just fine, God willing. Too much hinges on tomorrow's exam. And I keep going over my notes and my book, but I know there's nothing much that I can do save to read over, and over again. It's kind of maddening actually.

For the first time in my DLSU life...I am not sure if I'm going to get higher than 3.5 in anything. Maybe my philosophy grade will be as good as it gets. Possibly the same can be said for expsych lab, englstress, and theories of personality. I'll be lucky to even get a 3.0 in the rest. Goodbye dean's lister life. Again. Hopefully not. When I think about confounds and factors that could have contributed to this less-than-ideal state, I don't know what actually happened. Maybe it's my being a little scatter-brained. Maybe it's my not being particularly confident with science subjects. Maybe it's my occasional lack of focus. Or maybe it's just that "gulong ng palad" again. Or maybe it's God's way of telling me not to be so overconfident.

When I was in high school, I used to think that college was a cinch, that things would be great, that there was no reason that I'd have the same problems that my ates and kuyas warned me about. Now that I'm actually there...yeah, I guess they were right in saying that it takes more than just human effort to pull one through.

chem + colds = drowsy student

Yeah, the weather and the viruses have finally gotten to me. I overslept and woke up only an hour ago. Yikes. Not good when you have tons to study.

In retrospect...chem was survivable. It's likely to be the class that ruins my GPA, but well, at least it's not going to cause that much damage (I trust in God and my grades in my majors that my fate will not be so dire.)

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tuloy tuloy na ito....

I have been getting up extra early for two days now...

Yesterday: Woke up early to help usher at the SIBOL assembly/congress at DLSU. Some bonding time with Ate Carmel, Ate Regz, Ate Mel, and Andrew (cwts friend ko). Also bumped into Arven, Kuya Marco, and Ate Melai. Good thing I'm not a klutz when it comes to glass doors (had to keep opening and closing those things).

I also went to Cirkulo last night for Alexa's debut. Reunion with my friends in her batch! It's really great to catch up with a circle of friends that I rarely see nowadays (different lifestyles, different schools, different countries even). And the food was sooo good. Worth the extra weight gain.

TODAY: Went to Mass really early near my place. I'm going to be stuck at home for the most part of today. Can't go to the Araw ng SIGA (have to stick about the house for a bit), or to the GK1MB rally (have a dinner to go to). Hopefully though I can go with my siblings to watch "The Clone Wars"...that is if I am still not brain-dead from reviewing my experimental psychology.

I can't wait for these finals to be over....sana matuloy yung post-exam lakad. Arven, Dan, AJ...anong araw ba talaga? September 1 or September 2? Or after?

sisterly bonding galore...

Today's agenda: go to school for my chem exam (which I am just thankful to have answered), and also find out my intfilo grades. Then run to AC to help out Ate Carla and Niki with the girls.

Well, I did that and a little more:

DLSU: Managed to retrieve set of important papers for my buddies. Discovered vicariously (from Minseun) the shortest possible time one can finish an ice cream bowl. Also had a most interesting lunchtime with Dave and Arven (kahit medyo naawa ako sa kuting na umaaligid sa tambayan). After a frustrated attempt at finding my prof, I managed to hang out with Dan and Tino for a while before going to AC.

AC: Helping with the club, getting to know my sister's alagas. Seems as if the underclassmen at AC can really be behaved and sweet for the most part. I also got to catch up with Charlie, Lysa, Chiara, Lui, Pink, and Mong when we met at the chapel after the mass for Eeka. Really should find time to catch up with the girls in better circumstances. Also hung out with Clar, Ate Carla, and Niki in Burger King before going home. Only then did Jade text me my intfilo grades. Exeeemption here I come!

Despite the mess that happens when my mind met chemistry and some of the more somber moments...I can just say that today was one of the better days in the week.

external and internal drama

Today was good but oh how I wish it was better for many of us. Lots of challenges and tension in the air, even at the tambayan. I suppose it's because it's hell week. It's my first hell week outside of my usual crowd...and boy what an interesting week this has been. Lots of things I've learned, lots more people to care for in unexpected ways. Thank God that theories of personality and englstress are OVER!

Congrats to Pat, Claire, Sarah, and Sheila for winning Best Experiment, and to Wong, Nana, Jade, and Minseun for coming close!

I've been looking back on some things...how I wish I had done better on that major requirement. It's not that we did bad as a whole. I am not even angry, but just a little disappointed. I just wish I'd shot higher, dreamed more, dared more...it's not because I have high standards, but because it could have gone in a different direction.

No, don't tell me that doing my best is important. I know that I can do much more than what I think is my best. I don't want to be the one setting my own limits. I don't want to work to only five steps behind the fence of my mind when I know that there is a possibility I can go over it. Call me quixotic, perfectionistic or crazy. I am not looking for the security of my limits, but I am looking to transcend, to be the best I can, to work towards potential even if I don't see it yet.

In psych terms: I am not just content with security and esteem, but I am aiming for self-actualization. In spiritual-religious terms: I am not just happy because God created me, but I am striving to become the person that God created me to be. I am not just secure in God's love, but I want to become better because of it. Ganon ang pag-ibig!

I am definitely looking forward to any post-finals gimmicks and chances to get people together, chances to reunite, bond, and hopefully get some direction with my execom friends, a chance to go to the mall with my barkada...

school days...from Ate Carmel

PRE-SCHOOL :
.
1. Ano ang sinasabi mo noong bata ka pa na gusto mong maging paglaki mo?
* volcanologist at astronaut

2. Ano ang isang bagay na na-enjoy mong gawin noon?
* sumayaw sa harap ng lahat.
 
3. Bakit?
* ansaya eh
 
4. Anong age ka pumasok sa school?
* 3
 
5. Sinong 'buddy' mo noon?
* Sina Jovi at si Charity
 
6. Anong pangyayayari ang hindi mo makalimutan?
*  naglaro sa hallway, naging biktima ng bully...umuwi na nakaeyepatch

7. Kilala mo pa mga teachers mo?
* Yeahh....but I don't wanna meet at least one of them again
 
8. Iyakin ka ba noon?
* Depende sa teacher
 
 
GRADESCHOOL :
 
10. Sinong principal nyo noon?
* Mrs. Dela Rama at si Sister Marjo
 
11. Anong paborito mong laro?
* touchball!


12. May club ka bang sinalihan?
* Star Scouts at BEACON (school paper)
 
13. Maingay ka ba sa klase?
* YES
 
14. May kinakatakutan ka bang teacher noon?
* Mmhm. Si Sir Cereso at si Ms. Henares

15. Bakit?
* Ang daming requirements si Sir, at si Ma'am naman ay maraming pinapagawa sa akin pag PE. Wahhh!
 
16. Pano ka pumupunta sa school?
* school bus
 
17. Marunong ka na bang mag-commute ng panahong ito?
* grade 7 lang, dahil sa YFC

18. Paano ka mag-aral?
* Mabilisan
 
19. Mahilig ka bang kumain ng tusok-tusok?
* Hahaha, di yan uso sa amin dati.
 
20. Responsible ka bang estudyante?
* Usually
 
HIGHSCHOOL
21. Saan ka nag-high school?
* Assumption pa rin
 
22. anu mga section mo?
* 1-2, 2-1. 3-2, 4-2
 
23. May-CAT ba kayo noon?
* Yep, pero puro community service
 
24. Naging class officer ka ba?
* No way.
 
25. Kumakain ka ba habang nasa klase?
* candy or mocha frostee dahil sa aking hypoglycemia
 
26. Tamad ka bang pumasok?
* NYes, pero sige, pasok pa rin
 
27. Sinong principal nyo noon?
* Si Sister Maitel
 
28.Kilala ka ba nya? Ano tawag nya sa'yo?
*  er, siyempre. Kat rinaang tawag niya sa akin

29. Paano?
*  siya naging adviser ko nung grade school, tapos nung naghighschool ako, dalawa ang reputation ko: Palanca Awardee tsaka aktibista.

30. May award ka bang natanggap non? anu-ano?
* honors kung saan saan, basta wag sa Math, 2 Palanca awards...ilang distinction dahil sa mga Bio quiz bees na nasalihan ko, mention for being editor in chief of my high school paper...

 
COLLEGE:
 
31. School mo?
* De La Salle University - Manila
 
34. Meron ka bang org na sinalihan?
* Mmhm...

35. Ano?
* Malate, SMS, at YFC
 
36. Naniniwala ka ba na pag college ka na, matatagpuan mo ang true love mo at hindi sa highschool?
* Hindi. 
 
37. Embarassing moment?
* nsita sa class...umupo sa tambayan na nakalongskirt at muntik na matumba, maling pasok sa classroom, grand entrance pag klase, sumigaw sa tambayan dahil may test at yare ako sa mga kasama ko, inasar sa klase tungkol sa crush ko at tuloy nabuking...
 
38. Unforgettable moment?
* Madami...pero paborito ko ang mga tambay moments ko

39. Pano gumalaw ang mga tao sa eskwelahan mo?
* Lakad na may konting bilis
 
40. Sosyal ka ba?
*  Not really

God makes my schedule sometimes...

So I counted on going to school to review for Chem, take my exam, and enter my philosophy class of doom (finding out my pre-final grades!) Turns out that God had other plans.

I never made it to class. By 11:20, classes were suspended (and my first class was scheduled for 1pm!) Medyo nakakaasar na di makapagexam, pero okay na rin...isa pang pagkakataon para mag-aral ng chem, isa pang pagkakataon para mag-aral para sa majors test bukas.

But today was still a day worth going to school for

...to get in prayer time and review time

......to write a nice reflection in the logbook

...to bond and talk about everything serious and everything not so serious with Dan, Tino, Rodrigo, Miwa, Ynah, Charles, Pao, Issa, Geom, April, and Teddy

...to learn what it really means to care and understand

...to discover shared pasts, shared struggles and shared joys.

..to meet another sister in Erica

...to laugh out loud about the most inane things

...to play Shaggedy words, Mafia and all kinds of things while waiting for the rain to stop

...to treat my sister to ice cream at Jollibee

...to discover that my role as a friend, leader, and student may be more vital and more meaningful than I thought.

I can't wait for exams to be over, for this odd schedule to make itself clear, for the chance to join an execom household, for God's blessings to be manifested more in our day to day lives. God bless us all!

it's 9 in the morning, and I'm posting too early

Because what else can you do when you're alone in the tambayan, your friends are in class/ have stuff to deal with, it's waaayyy too cold to be sitting around there, and you really have had enough of your chem book?

Still, despite the weather, the day's been good. Surprising what you and your sister can talk about when stuck in traffic. Surprising what you can learn from a friend. Surprising to find that you have enough time on your hands to get things right, and maybe, just maybe you aren't doomed after all.

I should be getting to the SFA now to deposit my enrollment form. My sked next term is not that pretty. I hope that even with killer majors, lab work, and an assistantship next term that I will still have time to just be with people, to hang out, to worship, to hopefully get to know a household, to catch up, to laugh and to love.

I want to do my best, but I won't lose track of the things that are important in the present.

 

...trying to be a better sister

This afternoon was well...blessed at the same time draining. I really wish it had been a happier occasion for all of us (YFC comm based, AC girls, teachers, etc). Still, I am glad we got to honor and remember a truly amazing girl who made such a profound difference in her own way.

Just hearing about Eeka gave me more motivation to love and support the rest of us who are dealing with her absence. I may not give hugs as well or as often, but I can at least be there. Like in the way she was, and always will be.

To Lui, Pink, Mong, Monica, Sarah, Geri, Missy, Mara, Lumi...there are just too many of you to mention...I love you all. And I'm there if you need moral support in any form whatsoever.

To Niki, Ate Carla, Kristine, Gelo, and Bea...I am so glad you came. I am so glad we did not have to all grieve alone.

Eeka, sis, I know you need not read this (you already know)---but remembering you also made me reflect on how I've been going about things this last week. I think I might have seriously hurt some people (especially at least one of my brothers) by the things I said.

God, give me the grace to do better...especially during this week when we need love the most.

taking my world apart

The unbelievable part about this weekend is that I can still say "Praise God" despite the pain and difficulty of the last few days. My phone is busted, I have several papers due and I am not sure about how I'm doing with editing them, I have a chem test on Wednesday. Those, I can deal with. But the other events: coming to terms with what happened to Eeka, my parents being stressed out, Wicket being not so well again...those are a little more tricky.

Tama nga kayong lahat...all I can do is stop stressing and start praying. Stop cursing everything and just look at these turns as challenges and opportunities to see God's will in my life again.

Things I'm praying for:

1. Peace of mind

2. Na sana walang babagsak sa mga kaibigan ko (sa mga psych buddies at sa mga YFC)

3. Na sana magiging matino ang chem grade ko.

4. Healing for my AC friends.

5. Na sana this term break/second term...may magandang activity ang YFC-DLSU (sana camp sometime soon! sana handa tayo if ever...)

6. That God's will be done as far as my grades are concerned.

7. Na sana maayos ang phone ko!

8. That Wicket will get better soon

9. That more good news will show up on the broadsheets one day

10. That my papers will be okay. I did my best on them...I think!!!

names, names, names (meme ulit!)

Because my phone is STILL busted and I really need a diversion...so Jazz let me try this survey.

Rule: List all the names you were called by and the people who call you that. Tag at least 10 members of your contacts and give a comment on their site for them to know they've been tagged.

1. Kat - what most people call me anyway.

2. Katrina - most adults or relatives who knew me before high school. Mga ibang teachers na rin.

3. Ate Kat - most friends or YFCs who are younger than me by at least a year. Pwede din si Dan at si Mira, pag trip nila akong asarin.

4. Miaow - some of my YFC brothers.

5. Kat-kat - Clar at ilang mga grade school friends.

6. Eponine - Cookie, Aiko, Sarie, other AC girls.

7. Box Ghost - Cookie and Aiko (na-obssess yata sa Fatal frame)

8. Kat G- Usually only Dan and Kat Del Rosario call me this when they're around the tambayan (para di raw malito)

9. Ms. Gomez - some of my profs.

10. Ms. Gometh (z pronounced as th)- Mr. Bascara (feeling Kastila yata si Sir ata nung Kaspil 1)

11. Gomii - Moncie, Sarie, and Lili

12. Gomez - some high school friends (dahil sobrang daming Kat sa batch namin yata)

13. Aurelia - psuedonym ko dati sa ilang mga writers' forums. Good old days...

14. Teacher Kat - mga estudyante ko dati nung may summer job ako

15. Teach - mga ibang mas matandang estudyante na feeling close.

I tag...anyone. coz I'm doing this unofficially. But in particular, I'd like to see Trisha, Mac, Tino, Ynah, Ate Oche, Ate Issa, Ate Carmel, Arven, Dan, and Geri answer this.

mabuti na pumasok pa ako!!

Today was one long FREE CUT: No psych lab work, no theories of personality, no experimental psych lecture, and only a consultation for englstress.

I spent most of my day at the tambayan, eating, catching up with people, or reading. It's fun just to be able to chill out. I just wish that I had a little more time with everyone else (for some reason, I tend to start and end my hell week a little later than the rest of you guys. Ako naman ang yare next week!) I also wish that my blood pressure was high enough for me to donate blood.

I loved household today. Never mind if Niki and I got soaked in the rain trying to fix some last minute details.

The good things that came out of today:

1. Learning to appreciate my YFC family all the more. I've never had so many friends who would readily be there for each other, and yet know how to kindly correct one another.

2. Getting my sanity back, some point or another.

3. Catching up with Ms. Peracullo, Ate Issa, Jess, and Ate Ynah!!!

4. Learning a bit about better writing in englstress

5. Having another opportunity to pray.

6. Having a chance to make some people happy.

...pride is the hardest thing to swallow

Yes, this is one of the "lessons I learned today" posts...

1. Just because a dog is housebroken, that doesn't mean he/she will not misbehave once in a while...

2. Coffee is NOT always a good idea to drink before or during a cramming session

3. I really should learn when someone is trying to tell me something for my own good.

4. When the above happens, I should stop whining and protesting, and actually listen.

5. Chemistry is something that must ALWAYS be studied for way in advance!

6. Learn when to say "sorry" and  "thank you".

7. Regardless of anything that Sigmund Freud says about defense mechanisms and displacement, it's just not right to keep on venting or directing my annoyance towards others.

8. Sometimes you have to tell a friend what he or she does not want to hear.

9. There's a good side to being stranded or stuck in school because of a sudden downpour.

10. There's always something I could do to be a little more loving. Which is becoming more and more important nowadays.

11. I could always learn when to step up and give an impromptu report in INTFILO.

12. When I stop stressing out, I could actually get ENGLRES stuff done as well as advance study for chem, among other things.

13. I should spend less time stressing and more time praying.

Hay...what a long day! I really shouldn't have done some of the things I did. I really should have learned my lessons a little earlier instead of making morning a little too tense for some people's liking. At least I learned. I really know I have to make it up to some people now. Masagwa na talaga ang ginagawa ko paminsan minsan.

God please teach me to be more patient and caring...even when I do not feel like being so!

sunog na araw...

Today was well, at the very least a lesson in resilience and perspective.

So there was another fire today along the LRT route. I swear, someone's got to be committing arson. Anyway, it led to an amazingly long train delay that must have lasted all day.

Lab was slightly interesting, but for the most part I was restless and bored. Lunch with Niki, Francis, Rods, April, and Tino was at least comforting, and a lesson in learning not to swear. Chem lecture was disastrous. I hate my latest test score (sabit lang! wahhh!) and I took quite a long time in solving my chem problem. Tsssskkk. I wanted to cut INTFILO today, but Kuya Tino talked a little reason (and good sense) into me. Di ako immune sa katamaran.

After school tambay and worship was great as always. Got to catch up, worship and hang out with Karl, Dan, Arven, Geom, Marge, Drew, Tino, Rods, Olivia, AJ, and Mark. Tried to take the train home, but found that the train was still delayed. So it was a little adventure for me and Clar to get home via jeep then bus. Yeah, deretso nga ang LRT, pero sunog pa rin...

God must be trying to tell me something

So topic in kasangga this week was about purity and chastity. To think this happens within three days of my finishing Wendy Shalit's "Return to Modesty", as well as my being (nicely) corrected by my friends for my choice of words...

Yeah, di na pwede ang pabulag-bulagan. Kailangan ULIT mag-ayos!

and slowly God takes care of things

It's not even ten in the evening, and I'm done with a lot of my work already. Praise God! I thought it was going to be extra-grueling, but well, not quite. Now I've gotten most of my expsych stuff in (papers, plus one thing for extra credit, the rest to follow). Now the only things that are still "hanging over my head" are chem, my theoper final paper, and my englstress work.

I sometimes cringe when I think of how I used to be in high school. I used to be so haughty about things. I used to think that a lot of people were underachieving when in reality there really were difficulties I didn't understand then. Now that I'm older, a bit more bruised, but definitely wiser, I understand better. I think God gives us difficulties so that we learn to carry our heads just high enough for us to see Him and other people.

 

I looked so hard that I missed the answer

The reasons were just there. After days of struggling over all three of my psych papers (two for expsych, another for theoper), I finally realized what was going on. I missed all the answers to my paper writing simply because I overanalyzed.

Replication paper (color and performance): Desensitization. ARGH! Andyan lang pala ang sagot kung bakit walang significant effect yung study namin!!!

Orig experiment: Maybe social facilitation is more applicable towards higher-stakes or competitive tasks. Ahahaha

THEOPER: Again, the organizational problem. I know how the theories apply to my "test case", but I just have a problem organizing the massive amount of information. Hm, to go by theory or by aspects of life?

breathless day and a survey

Today was well, tiring. Enough to make me wish that I had stayed for household last night. I had to haul myself out of bed just to get to the SMS research convention today. At least dressing up (thanks to a pants crisis and an odd bout of kikayness), helped a little. Let's just say I feel a bit more inspired to aim for the gold thesis award some two years from now.

Tambayan time with lots of people while readying with AJ, Francis, and Niki to go to AC today. Lots of fun and bonding time all the same. I really want to have enough time to hang out with everyone before finals!

AC was well, interesting and at the same time rather exhausting. Nuff said.

*survey from Ate Carmel

1. Huling beses mo nakasama mo mga kaibigan mo?

`` today

2. Ano mas gusto mo, magaral o magtrabaho?

`` mag-aral! I've tried working and it's soo tiring.

3. Isang kaibigan mo na miss mo na?

`` ...madami ito rin...

5. Mahal mo sya, pero may mahal syang iba, ano gagawin mo?

`` live and let learn

7. Sino huli mo naka H2H (heart to heart) talk mo? ano pinagusapan nyo?

`` Clar and Niki. Puro service and interpersonal problems...

8. Sa isang relationship, ikaw ba ung inaalagaan o ikaw ung nagaalaga?

`` I wouldn't know.

9. Pili ka, ikaw may pinaka maganda/gwapong muka sa mundo, pero ulo ka lang o ikaw may pinaka magandang katawan sa buong mundo, pero UBOD ng pangit muka mo.

`` pwede ba neither?

10. Hindi ako pwde umalis ng bahay na walang?

`` damit...

11. Killer smile o tantalizing eyes?

`` tantalizing eyes. I have them!

12. Bagay na nakita mo sa mall na gusto bilhin?

`` books...

13. Gusto ko mas maging kaclose si?

``maraming tao

14. Lasing na close friend mo pero friend lang siya sayo, tapos inamin niya sayo na may gusto siya sayo, ano gagawin mo?

`` babatukan ko na lang.

15. Ayoko pag__?

`` mataray

16. Magulo ba isip mo ngayon? bakit naman?

`` medyo dahil sa maraming gagawin

17. Gusto ko ulet halikan si_______?

``  wala pa...di pa ako nakakafirst kiss, so walang ulit.

18. Ano ung dahilan bat mo nagustuhan ung taong huli mo nagustuhan?

`` killer smile at nakakatuwang kasama.

19. May lakad parehas barkada mo chaka sobra crush mo, niyaya ka parehas, san ka sasama?

`` depende kung sino nauna, siyempre.

20. Sino ang nagkumpleto sa summer mo?

`` ...ang workmate ko si Diane.

21. Sino sa tingin mo masaya maging roommates?

`` not sure...

22. Pili ka, lag2 kita sa tanke puno ng sharks o pasok kita sa kwarto na puro ipis? (gutom na ang mga pating at lumilipad lahat ng mga ipis)

`` sharks. Di naman sila kumakain ng tao, usually.

23. Kanino ka huling nagsinungaling at ano sinabi mo?

`` sa kaibigan na nagtanong kung sino ang crush ko. Hahaha!

24. Nagmahal ka na ba at pinagsisihan mo?

`` YES.

25. Magkano ginastos mo kahapon?

`` 200

26. Best burger?

`` Aristocrat.

27. Pano pag ayaw gawin ng GF/BF mo gusto mo, ano gagawin mo?

`` comrpomiose

28. Magbanggit ka ng isang gamit ng X mo na nasayo pa din..

``  wala akong X.

29. Brat ka ba?

`` may panahon

30. Naglalakad ka lang, tpos ung tao nasa harap mo, nahimatay.. nalaman mo, ung sobra crush mo pala un! ano gagawin mo sakanya?

`` maghahanap ng tulong sabay bigay ng first aid.

31. Tama ba mga pinipili mo mahalin?

`` not always.

32. Malandi ka ba?

`` hindi yata

33. Bibigyan kita ng micro tracking device.. kanino mo ikakabit yun?

`` ...sa kapatid ko! Wahahaha!

34. San mo mas gusto malunod, sa dagat o sa pool?

`` ....pwede ba neither?

35. Matiisin ka ba pag nasa isang relationship?

``  I think I have to be if I want a relationship to begin with!

36. Saan pinaka masaya tumambay?

`` YFC!

37. Sino newest crush mo?

`` wala?

39. Masaya ka ba ngayon?

`` okay lang.

40. Message to anyone?

`` We have to find time to hang out!

mga simple joys...(tagged by Issa)

Name ten of life's simple pleasures that you like the most, then pick ten people to do the same. Try to be original and creative and not to use things that someone else has already used.
1. Time well spent with my family and my friends from YFC as well as my classmates.

2. Free cuts.

3. Getting to read or write in the logbook early in the day

4. Getting cute or inspiring text messages.

5. Playing with Wicket, my dog.

6. Coffee!!

7. Food tripping with my sister or with my friends

8. YFC household

9. New notebooks

10. Getting to just sit in a sunny yet windy location.

I tag anyone who hasn't done this yet.

***blog entry time***

I'm kind of tired from today. I've had a straight load of classes coupled with dropping by my YFC household then rushing to the SMS general assembly. I've had a small break in the day to chat with my friends, but I know too that everyone is busy and anxious nowadays--there's not that much time for deep conversations. I've been a little overwhelmed with the frenzy of academic work as well as my committments to various activities. I don't want to lose my grip on my studies, yet I know also that I have things to do outside of academics. I sometimes wish I could just not be me.

The thing is that I can never bring myself to stop loving God, or to stop caring about my family, my classmates, and my friends in YFC. There are times when I feel so tired from carrying everything and knowing too much, and all I can do is just let go and say "God, Ikaw na ang bahala sa lahat!" For me, the hardest thing to do is surrender. It's even worse when I know that the matter concerns people I love, or things in my life that I have hinged many of my expectations on. There are times when I wish I was a little more heartless, a little less caring. However I know now what makes my world go round.

I really wish I could have stayed for the rest of the household. I'm happy that Junee, JM, and Clar's blockmates went. I'm happy that I got to spend some time with the people I care about. I just wish it had been longer. I just wish I had more time besides worship to be able to unburden myself.

I'm tired but I'm still happy, lost for words, blessed, amazed, and strangely still able to find peace. It's because I know that God is almighty enough to overcome even the worst problems I lift to Him, yet I know that He is also my rock.

consume me from the inside out

It's a good thing that today was one of those "light" schedule days.

Alright, so I had a chem test and philosophy class. But that didn't stop me from doing these things when I wasn't hitting the books:

-getting FRUSTRATED in the library.

- YFC campus based bonding over everything from Yakisoba all the way to things I cannot do with my hands.

- discussing spirituality with Jade for her tredtwo homework

- reading on Positive Psychology. Yay!

-attending worship! Another much needed break in the day.

Tomorrow: half and half at household and later at SMS GA. This is the life of the ate na naging psychologist....

still Your glory steals my heart

So I know I've had a few interesting reversals as of late. I think God is trying to tell me something. Or teach me another lesson in empathy.

Things have been so far from perfect for me, but I still find I'm able to marvel in the beauty of the world. Or appreciate the little quips and jokes in the logbook. Or say "praise God" when I hear good news. Or to laugh even when being rained on. Or go out to buy a new copy of the Bible. It's kind of a symbol now for me. Or more than a symbol.

One thing I love about you guys is that you aren't afraid to correct me and get me back on the right track. Sa mga kapatid sa tambayan at sa campus based, salamat!

babae, ina, kilalanin ninyo....

Tingin ng mga bobong kapitbahay ko puta daw ako. Nagpapagamit, binabayaran. Sabi nila ako daw ang pinakamaganda at pinakasikat sa aming lugar noon. Ang bango-bango ko daw, sariwa at makinis. Di ko nga alam kung sumpa ito, dahil dito nagkanda loko-loko ang kinabukasan ko. Halika, makinig ka muna sa kwento ko, yosi muna tayo.

Alam mo, maraming lumapit sa akin, nagkagusto, naakit. Ang hirap pag lahat sa iyo virgin eh. Tinanggap ko naman sila bilang tao, bakit kaya nila ako ginago? Masakit alalahanin, iniisip ko na lang na kasi di sila taga rito, siguro talagang ganoon. Tatlong hayok na foreigners ang namiyesta sa katawan ko, na-rape ako.

Sa tatlong beses akong nagahasa, ang pinakahuli ang di ko makakalimutan. Parang maski di ko ginusto ang mga nangyari, hinahanap-hanap ko siya. Tinulungan nya kasi akong makalimutan yung mga sadistang Espanyol at Hapon. Kasi, ibang-iba talaga sya. Ibang klase siya mag-sorry, lalo pa at kinupkop niya ako at ang mga naging anak ko.

Parating ang dami naming regalo - may chocolates, spam, blue seal na yosi, ano ka! May datung pa! Nakakabaliw siya, alam kong ginagamit niya lang ako pero pagamit naman ako nang pagamit.

Sa kanya namin natutunan mag-inggles, di lang magsulat ha! Magbasa pa! Hanggang ngayon, sa tuwing mabigat ang problema ko, siya ang tinatakbuhan ko. Yun nga lang, lahat ng bagay may kapalit. Nung kinasama ko siya, guminhawa buhay namin. Sosyal na sosyal kami. Pero pakiramdam ko unti unti na akong nalolosyang.

Ewan ko nga ba, akala ko napapamahal na ako sa kanya. Akala ko tuloy-tuloy  na kaligayahan namin, yun pala unti-unti niya akong pinapatay. Putang Ina! Sa dami ng lason na sinaksak niya sa katawan ko, malapit na akong malaspag.

Ang daming nagsabi na ang tanga tanga ko. Patalsikin ko na daw. Sa tulong ng mga anak ko, napalayas ko ang animal pero ang hirap magsimula. Masyado na kaming nasanay sa sarap ng buhay na naranasan namin sa kanya. Lubog na lubog pa kami sa utang, kulang ata pati kaluluwa namin para ibayad sa mga inutang namin.

Sinikap naming lahat maging maganda ang buhay namin. Ayun, mga nasa Japan, Hong Kong, Saudi ang mga anak ko. Yung iba nag-US at Europe. Yung iba ayaw umalis sa akin. Halos lahat, wala naman silbi, masaya daw sa piling ko, maski amoy usok ako.

Sa dami ng mga anak ko na nagsisikap na tulungan ang kalagayan namin, marami rin sa mga anak ko na andito ang namamantala sa kabuhayan at kayamanan na itinatabi ko para sa kinabukasan naming lahat. Halos mahubaran na ako sa sobrang kasakiman ng aking mga anak. Ibinigay ko na ang lahat sa kanila, pero ninanakawan pa rin nila ako. Kaya dumating ang panahon na di na kami halos makaahon sa hirap ng buhay. Napakahirap dahil nasanay na kami sa ginhawa at sarap.

Ang di ko inaakala ay mismong mga anak ko, ang tuluyang sisira sa akin. Napakasakit tanggapin na malinlang. Akala ko ay makakakita ako ng magiging kasama sa buhay sa mga ahas na ipinakilala ng mga anak ko Hindi pala. Ang tanga ko talaga. Binugaw ako ng sarili kong mga anak kapalit ng kwarta at pansamantalang ginhawa na nais nilang matamasa.
 
Wala na akong nagawa dahil sa sobrang pagmamahal ko sa aking mga anak. Wala akong ibang yaman kundi ganda ko. Pinagamit ko na lang ng pinagamit ang sarili ko, basta maging maginhawa lang ang mga anak ko.

Usap-usapan ako ng mga kapitbahay ko. May nanghihinayang, namumuhi at naaawa. Puta na kasi ang isang magandang tulad ko.

Alam mo, gusto ko na sanang tumigil sa pagpuputa kaso ang laki talaga ng letseng utang ko eh. Palaki pa ng palaki. Kulang na kulang. Paano na lang ang mga anak ko naiwan sa aking puder? Baka di na ako balikan o bisitahin ng mga nag-abroad kong mga anak. Hindi na importante kung laspagin man ang ganda ko, madama ko lang ang pagmamahal ng mga anak ko. Malaman nila na gagawin ko ang lahat para sa kanila.

Sa tuwing titingin ako sa salamin, alam ko maganda pa rin ako. Meron pa din ang bilib sa akin. Napapag usapan pa din. Sa tuwing nakikita ko ang mukha ko sa salamin, nakikita ko ang mga anak ko. Tutulo na lang ang mga luha ko ng di ko namamalayan. Ang gagaling nga ng mga anak ko, namamayagpag kahit saan  sila pumunta. Mahusay sa kahit anong gawin. Tama man o mali. Proud ako sa kanila. Kaso sila, kabaligtaran ang nararamdaman para sa akin.

Sa dami ng mga anak ko, iilan lang ang may malasakit sa akin. May malasakit man, nahihilaw pa. Ni hindi nga yata ako kinikilalang ina. Ang dami ko ng pasakit na tiniis pero walang sasakit pa nung sarili kong mga anak ang nagbugaw sa akin. Kinapital ang laspag na ganda ko. Masyado silang nasanay sa sarap ng buhay. Minsan sa pagtingin ko sa salamin, ni hindi ko na nga kilala sarili ko.

Dadating na naman ang pasko, sana maalala naman ako ng mga anak ko. Isang buwan pa, magbabagong taon na. Natatakot ako sa taon na darating. Ngayon pa lang usap usapan na ang susunod na pagbubugaw ng ilan sa mga anak ko. Sana may magtanggol naman sa akin, ipaglaban naman nila ako. Gusto kong isigaw:

"INA NINYO AKO! MAHALIN NIYO NAMAN AKO!”

Sige, dumadrama na ako. Masisira na ang make up ko nito eh. Salamat ha, pinakinggan mo ako. Ay sorry, di ko nasabi pangalan ko.

 

 

Ako nga pala si PILIPINAS.

 

 



PLEASE REPOST OR LINK THIS ARTICLE...
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isa pang kabalbalan dulot ng insomnia

Dear Dan.
I don't really know how to tell you this, but I'm selling myself. I think I realized it when I tripped on sesame seeds outside of Chicago
and I saw you sit at the crazy monk. I'm sure you're frostbitten enough to understand that your Honda sucks. I'm returning your ring to you, but I'll keep your left ear as a memory. You should also know that I never liked to hate the Boston Celtics.
Good luck on your short leave from jail,
-Kat

Okay, ganito dapat yon....

Dear (the last person who left a comment on your multiply).
I don't really know how to tell you this, but ___1___. I think I realized it ___2___ ___3___
and I saw you ___4___ ___5___. I'm sure you're ___6___ enough to understand ___7___. I'm returning ___8___ to you, but I'll keep ___9___ as a memory. You should also know that I ___10___ ___11___.
___12___,
-Your name-


1. What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I'll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn't match
Grey - You're a pervert
Yellow - I'm selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You're a loser
Other - I'm inlove with your sister

2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December - When I changed tennis shoes

3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kebab - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women's clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
Annat; With George Bush and his wife

4. What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit at
Other - Drive out

5. What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflé
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My penpal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy-statue
Other - The crazy monk

6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs; Man
O.C.; Emotional
One Tree Hill; Open
Heroes; Frostbitten
Lost; High
House; Scarred
Simpsons; Cowardly
The news; Mongolic
Idol; Masochistic
Family Guy; Senile
Top Model; Middle-class
Annat; Ashamed

7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful I've felt
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That Santa doesn't exist
Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we're cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this.
Nervous - The middle-east
Worried - That your Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex-change
Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Overjoyous - That I'm open
Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks

8. What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your ring
Yellow - Your love letters
Red - Your Darth Vader-poster
Black - Your tame stone
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures from LA
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your contact book
Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs
Purple - Your old lottery coupons
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your memories from the military service

9. The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your photo
C/D - The oil stocks
E/F - Your neighbour Martin
G/H - My virginity
I/J - The results of your blood-sample
K/L - Your left ear
M/N - Your suicide note
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X - David's tricot outfits
Y/Z - Your grades from college

10. The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Always will remember
C/D - Never will forget
E/F - Always wanted to break
G/H - Never openly mocked
I/J - Always have felt dirty before
K/L - Will tell the authorities about
M/N - Told in my confession today about
O/P - Was interviewed by the Times about
Q/R - Told my psychiatrist about
S/T - Get sick when I think of
U/V - Always will try to forget
W/X - Am better off without
Y/Z - Never liked

11. What do you prefer to drink?
Water- Our friendship
Beer - Senility
Soft drink - A new life as a clone
Soda - The incarnation as an eskimo
Milk - The apartment building
Wine - Cocaine abuse
Cider - A passionate interest for mice
Juice - Oprah Winfrey imitations
Mineral water - Embarrassing rash
Hot chocolate - Eggplant-fetishism
Whisky - To ruin the second world war
Other - To hate the Boston Celtics

12. To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand - Warm regards
USA - Best regards
England - Good luck on your short-term leave from jail
Spain - Go and drown yourself
China - Disgusting regards
Germany - With ease
Japan - Go burn
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
Australia - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt - Fuck off now
France - In pain
Other - Greetings to your freaky family

pag walang magawa, magkalat ng survey!

Name 25 people you can think of right off the top of your head. Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 25 people. This is a lot funnier if you actually randomly list the names first.

1. Cookie
2. Razen
3. Trisha

4. Mira
5.  Aiko

6.  Ate Oche

7. Dan

8. Dave

9. Tino

10. Ynah

11. Arven

12. Karl

13. Issa

14. Regz

15. Niki

16. Rodrigo

17. Nana

18. Justine

19.Jade

20. Minseun

21. Gerene

22. Andria

23. AJ

24. Francis

25. Olivia

 

*How did you meet 3?
-She became my high school seatmate

*What would you do if 4 and 5 were
going out?
-Wonder how the heck that happened. May GG na si Mira eh.

*What do you know about 6?
- YFC ate, loves Kuya Victor very much, very concerned sister for everyone, is so funny around everyone she meets.

*What do you think of 8?
- Very unexpected and SYSTEMATIC. Whahaha.

*What would you do if 7 confessed that
he/she loves you?
- Matatawa na lang siguro.  

*Who’s going out with 1?

-I don't think anyone is, yet. :D

*What does 9 do for a living?
- Estudyante pa si Kuya Tino eh.

*What do you like about 22?
-Her sense of reasoning.

*Do you miss 24?
-Not so much. Pero magtataka ako pag di siya nagparamdam kay Niki o kay Clar ng isang linggo.

*What’s your opinion of 10?

- One of the sisters in YFC DLSU who really inspires me and who I am so proud to call Ate. Even if she is younger than me. :D

*What do you think about 23?
-One of the nicest and funniest ka-tambays ever.

*What would you do if 11 and 20 were going out?

- Probably ask if it is one practical joke gone out of hand!!!

*Who does 2 like?

-I don't know.

*Would you ever go to the movies with 12?
-Depends on the movie.

*Is 3 hot?
- Yep.

*What can you say about 19?
-A blockmate I miss hanging out often with.

*Does 18 know 16?
-I doubt it.

*Will 11 and 15 work out as lovers?
-No. Way. Hahaha.

*Is 12 friendly?
-Yes, definitely

Are you close to 2?
-We used to be closer, literally. Long time no see.

*Is 15 a good friend of yours?
-Pretty much. He's practically my kuya.

*What would you say to 1?
-We have to hang out.

*What would you like to say to 3?
-A lot, but first, musta expsych?  

*Ever had a fight with 11?
-Nope.

*Describe 17?
-Sensible, enthusiastic, funny, someone I miss.

*What if 11 and 15 dated?
-Huwag na.

*Would 16 and 19 make a good couple?
-Naykupow. Wag na.

*Is 14 a good kisser?
-I wouldn't know.

*Who does 3 love?
-Mac, her dad, her friends, wolves, and anime.

*If 4 were to go out with 9, would 5 get mad?
-Aiko wouldn't care. She doesn't even  know them.

*Was 20 ever with someone from your list of names above?
-Nope.

*Who does 25 like?
-I'm not actually sure.

*Is 24 nice?
-Yes. Ka-household siya ng sis ko.

*Is 11 weird?
-Sometimes, but he's super one of the best kuyas ever.

...balancing out things

Yesterday was overwhelming.

- Socpol (functional) meeting with Niki and the other socpol YFC execom of Manila Doctors and St. Scho. Lots of stuff about GK, upcoming activities, and plans. I'm excited for this month. :D

- Tambay at DLSU with Frances, Arven, Dan, Olivia, Rodrigo, Ynah, Tino, Dave, Karl, and Niki. A good break in the day before I went with Dave, Karl, Tino, Ynah, Niki, and Kuya Marco for our HLT. Let's just say that thank God I attended HLT again. Now I think I know what I should do better this time around as a household leader/ate in YFC DLSU. And thank God I have a more grounded prayer life.

Today: woke up late, tambay in Kuya Marco's place before I met up with Clar and my dad. Dropped off Clar at her HSB household before going home. Now I'm done with my assignments, and just have to do a little reading.

Sa lahat ng may UPCAT this weekend: GOD BLESS! :D :D